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Happy birthday singapore !!!

2010-08-09T11:59:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Singapore !!!!! How do i spend this weekend? er... it was okay, a restful, relaxing weekend with all my love ones. Jus that it's a petty not being able to attend sunday service which Joyce told me it's interesting.

I have been reflecting on myself lately and i realised i have indeed changed to become a better person. I no longer clubs, i seek for a healthier lifestyle, i run regularly. There is more peacefulness within mi. Thank God !!!

I have stopped talking to "da bian" already. LOL ok that's very mean of me. But it is seriously nothing compared to how much he has hurt me. He has found another girl for him already. I become more determine to give up. Love has to be reciprocal. There is nothing i can do. Every girls belong to a rib bone. I believe i can find my rib bone soon. :)

I am glad that i have found good friends on the way. They are there to spare listening ear, share little things with mi.. appreciate them.. I have not lost everything, i have gained something valuable.

Lastly, I am thankful that my Mum's health is picking up. I hope she recovered soon.

back

2010-04-25T17:09:00.002+08:00

i bet my blog mus be filled with millions of spider webs. yes it been long since i last blog.

so how have i been lately ? hmmmm....... probably slightly depressed, but still trying to move on. This year was indeed a bad year for me.. i have lost faith, i have lost trust, and most importantly i have lost friendshipssss.

indeed credibility takes a lifetime to build but a moment to destroy.
To A: I was filled with hope a couple of times, but the effect would be double once ur hopes are trampled on the ground and once again disappointment starts to sink in. we were once pretty close but i guess this closeness cannot be continued once i start feeling worthless in front of you. It seems like i am a pain to you. I started hating myself when i cant let you go, that i still cares for you. nevertheless, i know we cant go back to the past anymore. You once made mi feel like a princess, but then again, and now you have made mi feel like some dirt. you know that i am hurt , you know that i will be hurt, but u nv fails to take a dagger to stab it right into my heart.

To B: I seriously dunno what you are up to. you have disappoint mi the most! you kept telling mi u were innocent and that i cant see things on the surface. You are always a sensitive person, but then again, this time you have let mi down. you once mentioned "he is a bastard, but u are not a bitch". i also do not wish to conclude u are a bitch. probably you jus wanna enjoy the attention given. anyway, once bitten twice shy, i doubt i can find back the trust which i have in you. Facing you makes mi inferior of myself.......

"goodbye to my 2 "once close" friends" , all the best to you!

pray

2010-02-07T19:25:00.002+08:00

God! i have no one to turn to but to turn to you. I think i have lost myself, and i hate the current mi. I often feel insecure, i am often fearful. I often have nightmares becos of him. This kind of feeling sucks big time!

when will i be able to recover? should i forgive? he msg mi yesterday stating whether am i still mad at him, stating am i very unhappy being his friends....... i really dunno....... i seriously dunno.... i hope i can get over him soon... and bring back my true self....

2010-01-04T19:19:00.004+08:00

this place has probably been a place for mi to vent my frustration

my heart inevitably feels the pinch when i hear that he actually give something to ms x. though it is something free, but it is really the thot that counts isnt it. all i received from him is a box of sweets. that's all. as compared to wat ms x has received, it's really nothing.

i suddenly feel that i have lost something which was once precious to me. he is not longer yours, he will no longer bug u on msn, no longer ask u out, no longer msg you, no longer ask how is ur stomach, no longer tease mi, no longer wait for mi to finish up my work and head home together, no longer introducing mi to good places to eat.... have i given him out to someone else?

i seriously dunno when i can get over this, it's a real misery to me. i seriously dunno how ms x is feeling towards him though she mentioned that she will not like him ever. but i kept wondering, if she has no feelings for him, would she still give him gifts even if he gives ? would she continue to talk to him even though she knows that he is a lan ren and he is my ex? why doesnt she make it clear to him ? well, it is her freedom of friends, i can interfere much. I am in delimma. I wan to know how is their degree of friendship now, whether do they still talk often on msn, do they actually go out together ?? on the other hand, i dread knowing what he has said to her. i dread hearing what he has done/said to me in the past being repeated to ms x.

I dun hate both of them, cos i know hating someone will make mi more miserable. I know somethings cannot be forced. What's yours is yours. but then why do i still feel so miserable now?

if i know this process is tough, i would not step into it at all. Pain....

2010-01-01T11:06:00.002+08:00

happy new year !!! i seriously hope that for this current year, i would be happier!!! a lot of things happened in the previous year, i hope the current year would be smooth sailing for mi.

new year resolution
1. Lose 5kg in half a year
2. Pass my CPA
3. To gain more knowledge, expose myself more to other things, find out things when in doubt
4. Become prettier
5. hahaha.....to find someone who can treasure mi better and forget about the past

I know he has hurt me, i know we can nv be together anymore, but i know i still love him.

WA!

2009-12-16T16:51:00.003+08:00

Received an email from Xin and i went back to reread my blog. I was taken aback to see the number of entries posted about him and mi and it seems like i was feeling pretty down while writing those entries. Anyway.. thanks peeps for the concern. I am really feeling better. I know healing takes time. jia you bah !!!!

2009-12-10T22:40:00.002+08:00

hm..... i think.... i have become a person who cant really express my emotions in front of others already....i think my friend called it yu yi zheng.. i am quite surprise that deep down though i am very sad.. i can laugh and joke ard with my colleagues. His name can appear many times in the conversation but then, there isnt any sign of depression.... why is that so ?? mmm.....

i am sad, sad that it ended real fast, sad that i felt some kind of cheated, sad that i cant get to know u better, sad that you dun seem to bother.... when will i be happier.... i am now very afraid of being alone when i am alone, i feel depressed, i think more, i teared more..i seriously dunno how to face you.

2009-12-07T22:11:00.000+08:00

deep down... it hurts!!! u taught mi how to love, but u forget to teach mi how to forget...... i feel that i am foolish. i dunno wat am i waiting for, am i still hoping for something.

brave mi

2009-12-07T13:03:00.002+08:00

i have ended off everything last night.......... though it's sad but life still goes on...... thank god for the strength given.... someone commented that i am jus being brave.. i know what is the best decision for mi, i know that it will hurt, i have stop deceiving myself..... i decided to make the first move.

jokers

2009-12-06T00:01:00.002+08:00

jokers are often the saddest ppl in this world..even when they are sad, they would have to put a brave front infront of all its audience, trying to entertain..... yes indeed i agree to this point....

i am feeling pretty down lately. Everything doesnt turn out well for mi lately..... i failed my exams... boohoo.... i am starting to doubt my ability, i lose my confidence... why isnt he there when i needed someone the most?? I nv shed a tear when i know my results, i kept laughing out loud trying to cover my emotions deep inside my heart... boohooo .......

things doesnt turn out well for mi and him as well... i wanna put an end to it....there is no point trying out so hard when both of us know that we arent compatible. it felt terrible to feel disappointed again and again...

2009-10-20T12:19:00.000+08:00

Dear x,

i thanked u for being frank enough. i seriously got mixed feeling towards you. You have given mi something which i have nv experienced it before, becos of your i have changed partially. I have learnt to think deeper, i have gained many many knowledge from you, and i ever thanked God for letting mi know you. I have learnt to be more couregous, learnt to be more expressive and truthful to myself

On the other hand, i hate you. i hated you for letting mi fell into it, for letting mi feel inferior to myself, giving mi uncertainty, making mi realised that i was quite foolish at the end of the day. to be frank, the experience you have given mi isnt wonderful, i felt pretty hurt at times for somethings u do, somethings u said, you made mi feel as if i am not worth the effort....Well, it's time to move on, it's time to stop deceiving myself. You mentioned that you would try to be nicer, hm... some words some actions come from the heart, no point trying. Does trying helps, wouldnt u get tired at the end of the day? i know if i give up, life would sucks for a period of time but it is too late to back out now ?

* God pls guide mi.... i believe u have every reason for everything, you let mi meet x, have i gained enough from him, is it time to leave and move on?

give up

2009-09-09T09:59:00.000+08:00

i am tired, tired of thinking what you have been thinking, thinking of what's up in ur sleeves..... giving up is probably the best i can do for myself and u.... pls leave my life for the time being.

I know it would be hurtful in the earlier stage... but it would end soon....

haiz

2009-09-06T21:33:00.000+08:00

god, pls give mi the strength to let go........ it might be a bit painful for mi, but i rather give up now......

hmmm

2009-08-30T11:48:00.000+08:00

so tiring... have been working hard lately, my weekends almost burnt with my work.. lately there isnt much for mi to look forward to. cant catch up for my dance class also, exams are approaching, but i havent studied much, worried about my peak in the next 2 months... gosh !!! pls let mi pull through for this period of time!!!

oh yes, a good incentive for mi lately! i bot myself an agnes b wallet!! wee !! but it's quite pricey though... kanna niao by many many ppl. oh well, shall pamper myself a little before hard work approaches. at least i feel a bit great being financially independent, like that i can tahan slightly longer in my job.. (bull crap!)hahaha

what makes life contended

2009-07-30T21:37:00.000+08:00

Joyce asked mi this.... What makes u contended??
It's a tough question, it's like wat make u feel good everyday, motivated, looking forward to everyday?? Work, friends, family, partner, passion ?? hm.....

To be frank, i think it all depends on wat you expect in your life. no doubt men are greedy, they always asked for more... is a millionaire contended? or is someone famous and owns everything contended ?? yes, it all depends on what you asked for.... nv be greedy.... I seriously believe that god is fair. a millionaire might be rich, but does he have the time to spend time with his family or friends ? a farmer might have a lot of time with his family, but due to financial problems he might be venting his frustration on his children.

anyway......... currently happy with my life now. =)

yesterday

2009-07-11T12:22:00.002+08:00

yesterday went to a concert with sw and a few of my colleagues. It was a christian arcapella concert. Well overall, it was not too bad lar... though there were times i was stoning in the concert... haha...

anyway after that i went on to eat tao huey... then went home... argh !!

i feel like clubbing!!!!

argh...

2009-07-10T00:43:00.003+08:00

gossips at work sucks..... one of my friend was complaining another friend to mi becos of his working attitude... suddenly i felt a little stressed. If i worked with her and if i cant deliver, is she going to bitch about mi like tat .... SCARY ! i hope i dun work with her man !

anyway, someone sux to the max lar...... yes he probably up to some nonsense, probably unstable...... Lan Ren!! ....Don't you know such tatics doesnt work on mi, it would have adverse effect on mi.. If you tried to use such tatics on mi, i would probably run away faster. i admit i am simple minded, i dun wan to use my brain to think what is actually running across ur mind .. U SUX !

haiz

2009-07-09T23:51:00.002+08:00

haiz... so tiring... i have become an 24hr SOS hotline..my friends are really calling mi up at different timing to complain, bitch or getting entertained. goodness... my ear is feeling a bit numb now, my hp's batt is running low and my head is spinning right now....

arghh

2009-07-04T02:01:00.002+08:00

feeling as if i am at a junction........ dunno whether to walk straight or to make a turn. If i dun walk straight, i would nv know wat will happen, however if i walk straight.... i might have to witness an accident. HOW..... i dunno what i want!!! i am confused!!!

mixed

2009-07-02T19:46:00.002+08:00

hm... i went for a blood test recently. and i found out that my blood has got some problems. According to the doctor, it is some genetical problems which is called thalassemia. From wat i know, it is a problem whereby my red blood cells are smaller and lesser than my white blood cells. Red blood cells are cells that transport oxygen to all parts of our body. Therefore, i would feel tired easily and dizzy. hm... now i know why my energy level will only last half a day....

anyway, it would not actually affect mi much... jus that in future

anyway though i will not be affected much, i tend to have a high when i choose my husband, he cannot be a carrier of such problems. If my husband is a carrier, my child in future would have problems. Either he wouldnt be able to survive or he would need to undergo blood transplantation regularly..boohoo Yes! i am scared!!!!! boooohoooo........ thr possibilty of contracting some illness like cancer or leukemnia (is this how i spell it, anyway)...... boohooo

Nevertheless, i realised i am fortunate enough... my friends, my family showed concern..... my mum are cooking much better food lately. and lastly, i am touched by someone........

damn

2009-06-03T22:02:00.001+08:00

Damn !!! my peaceful life was disrupted, my principles wavered, my mind was in a mess, no longer decisive as i used to be.... all thanks to u.... grrrr.....

arghhh

2009-05-30T09:08:00.002+08:00

arghhh my head hurts now, sorethroat also.... alcohol sucks man !!! it makes mi high in the first place but the after effect is horrible.. heng arh i didnt puke.....

anyway i went to zouk with my colleagues yesterday. Suppose to go butter, but becos of my curse there were MANY ppl there.so we went to zouk instead..haha.... anyway, i was pretty drunk last night, NOT becos i drank a lot but i think it's becos i drank too fast.. hahaa... i can only rmb my colleagues kept asking mi to drink and drink.... lucky i reach home safely last night.. phew....

come to think of it, i think i am a really lucky person. it seems that all of my friends ard mi really takes care of mi ^^.. heee.... my uni friends, my poly friends, my sec skool friends and now my colleagues..... yeah i am fortunate !!!!

tong ku !!!

2009-05-27T22:52:00.002+08:00

booohoooo.........i think i might have problems finishing my work.. how??? damn tong ku!!!! senior is damn zai, and this is the job which makes mi think that i am very incompetent, i loses all my confidence.... i wanna give up, i felt like quitting, i felt that this job is not suited for mi..... god save mi.. booooo

marriage

2009-05-24T10:48:00.002+08:00

is marriage a graveyard to relationships????

had a talk with someone else, and then we were saying that at times a couple are together for like 10 over years and then they broke up. she said that it is because they have known each other too well. suddenly i had this thought wat if they are married after 2 years then they started to realise that they are actually not suited for each other.... how ????

By then they probably have kids, and they would be tied down by marriage. They would try to make things work in that husband and wife relationship..... Would that be true ??? hm... i think i have phobia towards marriage....

ok.. on a lighter note....
I think my hip hop has improved !!! wahahaha... i am able to catch up with the rest of my classmates.... hip hip hurray !

to my friends ... Jia you in whatever u do=) Lv Ya... call mi if u need a chat.... i am quite free lately... haahah

damn guilty

2009-05-23T00:04:00.002+08:00

got a dumb colleague who loves to torture himself.... argh......tml manager would be reviewing the files therefore he was asked to update the outstanding list. He keeps complaining that he has this and that to do, and then when i asked him to leave it in my pigeon hole, i will do it tml. He refuses.... .weird... seriously dunno what's holding him back man !!! goooodnesss...... he is seriously making mi damn guilty lar ... irritating!!!

damn

2009-05-21T00:45:00.003+08:00

damn !!! i am falling into the well........argh.... wat should i do? Climbing up the well requires a lot of strength a lot of courage..... God save mi !!

scary

2009-05-12T22:44:00.002+08:00

I am afraid.. afraid that some things might become a habit....argh... better put a little brake before myself getting hurt in the end. ya scary.....

alright on a lighter note, i had my hair cut the other day. and it's super short, as short as my pri 1 hair length. I was lazy on sun, therefore i decided not to travel to my usual hair salon. I went to a hair salon near by. I specifically told the auntie that i dun wan it to be too short (at the back of my mind thinking that if she cut horribly, it still can be saved). I was told to take off my specs. The auntie combed my hair real hard, snip my hair real faster. Probably after 10 mins later, i put on my specs and realised that it is damn short already. I began weeping deep down in my heart regret stepping into this salon. F that woman !!!

2009-05-07T23:44:00.002+08:00

how dumb ... it started off with grapes....... also dunno why my mum go and throw away a box of grapes which she tot is hers but it is actually my grandma's. sian... then my grandma roar liao....... seriously dun understand my mum, how dumb!!! Why!!!! goodness wanted to protect u but ..

depressing

2009-05-07T21:33:00.002+08:00

my current job is depressing.......... HHHaaiizzzz........
simply dislike the whole job.... dislike the constrainted space i have, dislike the nature of this entity, dislike the environment.... this week time passes very slowly, i have been counting down to weekends Everyday!!! though i dun have to work late but it is damn depressing.......

hm... i think i am a bit mad lately or rather too wu liao le.. I have set up a SDU in the company intending to matchmake my friends together. haha... i am quite amazed that one of the guy is interested in one of my friend, to the extend i realised that he is quite despo... damn !!! why did i have the tot of introducing him !!! ren bu ke mao xiang lar.... also dunno how to account to my that friend man.......

happi

2009-05-03T20:16:00.002+08:00

hurray........... had my exams le... this weekend went to cruise with px and the rest.... fun !! though there isnt much things inside, but i seriously think it is the company you go with. we really go to the extend of playing twister at the corridor... haha.. we eat sleep play drink, how good life can be with doing only these things...... lol.

it really a good recharge for mi.... my peak, my study is making mi so lifeless. thank god i have this trip to perk mi up......

hurray

2009-04-05T11:01:00.002+08:00

hurray... my blog is back to working condition... i wanted to blog for a few instances, however i jus couldnt log in and view my blog..

hm... slept A LOT lately.. last week my work was still ok came home quite early, wanted to study for a few pages, but then when i reached home, i started watching tv, thereafter i headed off to sleep... damn!!! nah have to mug intensively over my weekends le..... hopefully i can!! but then it seems hard.. haha

anyway, recently, i went to join this dance lesson... hahahahaa yes i mus be out of my mind!! yesterday was my 2nd lesson, and i seriously think that my legs and hands are retarded!! duhzzzzz...... well, anyway it is an experience lar, i better do it before i get older hahahaa.....

hm.....

2009-03-08T20:11:00.002+08:00

suddenly i have the urge to club... i jus need sometime to get away, get away from this reality....

been real busy lately, busy working and trying to study at times. my mum told mi today " who ask u wan to further your studies, why make urself so xin ku, your working hours is so long le, why still study"... booooooooo..............

is my choice killing mi, am i too ambitious? it's jus the beginning and i am drowning.......

jiu ming arh!!!!!

bitch

2009-02-15T15:25:00.002+08:00

i seriously think i am a real bitch esp when i started working..........

hm... yesterday went out with 2 of my friends. Did u ever go out with ur friends and then u feel as if time passes really slowly and then u wanted to go home badly???!!! yup that's how i felt last night. The story goes like that..... (A) told mi that she is gonna bring mi to a good place to chill (arab street), i was quite excited becos i have nv been to that place. she also asked (B) along. Anyway, i was wondering wat kind of place is that, and i asked them wat are they gonna wear because i really dun wan to go to that place or go with a gang which i would dress differently from others. So (A) told mi, she is gonna wear jeans. well, i am that kind who hates to wear jeans lar, so if she is wearing jeans, i would probably wear a dress or.... skirt then. I called (B) up, asking wat is she gonna wear. I told her that i felt more comfortable with shorts. But she advise mi not to wear shorts becos, firstly we might not know how high class that place is, moreover this is a place to chill out, with alcohol, it should be some pubs or wat.... and anyway it is vday, a lot of ppl would be dressed nicely. yeah i think she sounded quite right, hence i wore a dress. and KNOW WAT HAPPENED??!!! both of them wore shorts!!! seriously fucked up lar!!

i am damn pissed off, although i kept grumbling at them, i doubt they know how "ANGRY" i was deep down. I asked (B) to give mi a good explanation for it, she told mi .... "becos it is vday, hence we wan u to look good"... do u think that is a good explanation... i dun give a damn lar !! Childish lar..... does audit life bores them so much to the extend they are trying to make some fun out of this incident !!! argh!!!! I dun wan them to repeat this anymore, but they dun seems to know howANGRY am i!!!!! argghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............

random

2009-02-14T00:32:00.002+08:00

this post gonna be a real random... firstly happy vday to everyone !!!!! hope everyone would feel loved and blessed on this day. Hm.... how should i make my family loved and blessed??? probably should take em out on sunday for a meal...???

anyway today was out with hm and joan with another friend of hers.. called.. Tina... i was taken aback when i saw that girl, she is really tall 178cm (goodness). anyway this girl is quite friendly and approachable. Furthermore, she is very knowledgable. Had a great time talking to her.... we exchanged contacts and msn, hopefully can still keep in contact in the future bah....

today my client actually asked mi, so do u like you job.... i replied her.. hm... not bad... seriously i dun really like the job!! argh!!! apparently i feel that everyone treated us like Superman or magician. when client couldnt tie their own announcement figures and they gave up, they throw it to us. my tax dept is horrible as well. they go home early everyday, pushes all blame to us, and they charge their time like nobody's business... for your info the more hrs they charged, the lesser OT we will get. anyway today the tax side got back to us, telling us that there is problem with the holding company's tax. Guess wat time they send us the things ??? 6 pm..... a real smart move!!!! though i am only an assistant, it doesnt affect mi a lot, but i really feel we are probably having the world most pathetic occupation. long hrs, less ot, expected to perform stunts, provide quality service, act professional.

ok lar sleepy....

miserable !!!!

2009-02-08T02:01:00.002+08:00

ARGh!! work 15 hrs on sat !!!! it's 2 am now, Big Mac online intending to continue work again..... today she was supposed to attend this BBQ gathering however, work has tied her down and she couldnt attend it. Big Mac immediately called her friends after work, having the thought that she can probably meet them up for a drink in the city.... but then.. her friend told her..... " Oh i have reached home le".... hence she had no choice but to drag her feet home.....

hm...... why is it that i still misses my friends even when i am back in singapore?? work has slowly taken control of my life!!! goodness!!! what should i do??? sianzzz ..

yooo

2009-01-23T01:28:00.002+08:00

this is quite zun.. special thanks to siting....
aries - energetic , adventurous, spontaneous, confident, enthusiastic, fun, loves challenges, extremely impatient, sometimes selfish, short fuse, lively, passionate, sharp wit, outgoing, lose interest quickly, easily bored, egotistical, courageous & assertive, tends to be physical & athletic..
ooooo... how was it, it is true????? maybe some of u might shake head when it says that i am energetic adventurous, athletic, spontaneous... haha..i think my laziness outshine these factors of me.... li bu cong xin lar... hahahaaha.....

anyway ... yippee... cny is coming...really happy for having such a long break, before the real audit peak is here... I have been sick for the past 1 or 2 months already, it's really time for mi to take a break. but it is quite sad that this is the first cny which i didnt contribute much to my family. in the past, i would either help my mum with the spring cleaning, or help my dad to carry boxes of mandarin oranges up.... but this year... 80% of my time was spent on working.... booooooo... and goodness i realised i dun have enough money to BAO HONG BAO !!! howwwwww......

i am sleepy le... night !

New year reflection

2009-01-02T00:11:00.003+08:00

It's a new year!!!! whooooo.... last year was a great year for mi too
I finally graduated from school moving into another stage of life, working. Though my work is tough, it's taking over the time i spend with my family, my friends and my personal time. But i enjoy being financially independent..

i am seriously thankful for having my melb friends with mi in melbourne. I bet without them, my life in melbourne would be horrible. thankful for those who have been accompanying mi on msn sharing with mi all the gossips and their thoughts ... thankful that the moths didnt come and look for mi while i am staying alone. thankful that i am much healthier in melb. yeah... i survive!!! and i have grown stronger mentally and physically.

hope that i can bring this strength to my workplace. well although workplace can be a very scary place with many political issues going on..... anyway.. i hope that i would develop a liking for my job, i have been complaining about my job last year, probably i need some passion in work...

alright... this year...
my new resolution is.....
- pass my CPA exam
- become slimmer hm... exercise more and zap more
- play hard...

FFFFucking pisss

2008-12-29T00:44:00.002+08:00

i am fucking pissed off by the selfish ppl at home... ESP MY DAD !!!!

he went shopping with my grandma today, while i was working from home. today mum didnt cook. so in the morning she bot each of us a packet of rice and expect us to settle the rest of the meals ourselves. Anyway i skipped my lunch and for my dinner, it was super duper cold fried rice, bought by my sis a few days ago. ok lar.. that wasnt very cham, becos if i dun like the food i can jolly well eat maggie mee...

anyway, what makes mi soo pissed off is that my selfish dad came home and he ask mi,
"EH NV IRON CLOTHES FOR MI ARH". Damn it man, i was like "CANT U SEE I AM WORKING". It is not as if i am sleeping or watching tv lar.... i am already feeling damn sian working the whole day on sunday liao, and there u are expecting mi to iron your clothes??!! cant u see my clothes have not been ironed as well. shit!! u went out to escape away from grandfather, and the rest of us looking after ur dad, before u come back, u nv even call to ask us whether we wan any food or not.... (It has been like that for a few weeks already) damn selfish!!!

then... at times when i cannot stand his selfishness and ignorance, i would shout back at him. But he often gave mi that ke lian look saying... u all like to bully mi... soooo irritating....

my mum is another mad one.. once i started ironing clothes for my dad, she threw the whole job to mi...... all she irons is her own clothes.. goodness

!!!!! i have this top that is very difficult to iron, and i told her to iron for mi when she is free. 2 weeks later, it is still hanging there.... bo bian

i have to iron myself jus now... grrrrr...... when she came home today she kept insisting that i went out on christmas and today... HELO!! i am not that good life lar...

damn !!! i felt soo unwanted...... qi si wo le !!! hmph !!!

Is this the life i really wanted

2008-10-08T01:30:00.002+08:00

gosh ! suayness!!!! working lots of unclaimable ot lately. gosh !!! i end work at about 11pm or 12am lately.... i felt that one of my colleagues might be a jinx to mi man, i often get a lot of shit which is suppose to be her shit... haha..

she is suppose to audit for this first year client. As mentioned, it is first year has no prior working papers hence all the documentation done cannot be refered to previous year. then i was like phew..... lucky i didnt kena....

in the end !!!! she was taken out from that job and i was put on that job !!!!! argh!!!!!!! goodness

then subsequently, she was assigned to this super duper rush job and the client only allowed auditors to go in on thurs. Hence her senior told her that she does not need to come to work on monday and tues, as it is to replace her weekends.

VERY unfortunately, i was told on tues that i have to go to that client of hers also... another subsidiary...(so this means that my mon and tues leave is gone)..(FYI... last wed is a holiday, the SUAY me went back to work also)...

ok back to story.. so i work until quite late last thurs and fri, work on sat until 8, monday and tues work until quite late also. And guess wat !!!! she told mi she has been going home at about 8 plus at night, no need to work over the weekends becos the client hasnt prepare the relevant documents for them.

I am really wondering.. is she plain lucky or am i plain suay!!!! as compared to all my uni mates... my worklife isnt that heng. Everyone is hoping that they wouldnt be as suay as mi man !!!!!!

I am starting to ponder... pondering whether this is the life i really wanted. I realised i couldnt work in a job with all the auditors, i cannot tahan the small and limited space, the stressful environment. Come to think of it.... in 24 hrs a day, probably 16hrs commited to work, 5 hrs of sleep, 1 hr of transportation, 1/2 hour to eat, 1/2 hour to bathe, 1 hr to do miscellaneous. Gosh!!! i would go crazy soon......

Meanwhile pray for mi.. i need tons of blessings !!!

hmmmm

2008-09-26T22:48:00.002+08:00

my new job...... sob sob..... i dun feel like working anymore, i am beginning to feel that this is probably not the environment i am looking for,despite the bigger and posh looking building, the air is cold, everyone is in their own world working hard.. Furthermore, i am beginning to feel that i am rather incompetent.. to be frank, i miss jan being in the same office as mi. I am happy being an intern over there, but i am not very happy being a perm staff there. As an intern, with the charge out rate of $10 per hour, i can do many things, i can help ppl out. I dun really care about the hierachy in the company, jus be friends and i feel that most of them are helpful and friendly and they really treat mi like a small kid. when i am bored, i would walked ard the office and sit beside my seniors attempting to start a small talk with them...

However, when i became a perm staff, things started to change, when i have nothing to do and wanted to help others, i need to think about whether am i able to account it to my AO, i need to think about what the other freshies would think about mi.

But one thing that pleased mi is that some of the seniors whom i have known when i was an intern and have recently been promoted to manager, they are still quite friendly.at least they still smile to mi (unlike some small fry in the company still soooo hao lian lar !)

I seriously think that going in as the normal batch together with all the local unis is indeed a "courage". the company hired too many ppl from the local unis that they have actually created their own clique. It is quite difficult to blend into their group. but luckily i have the malaysian clique with mi...

Lastly, i saw my schedule today and it seems quite bad. It is a first year client, hence there is no working papers for us to follow. GOD !!! SAVE MI!!!!

the road ahead wouldnt be easy... i need to be blessed!!!!

skool reopening

2008-09-22T20:52:00.002+08:00

it's like skool reopening today...yesterday feeling jittery, busy preparing my stationery set, my note book... getting ready to go to SKOOL (work). It is exactly like in the past, the night before skool reopens, i would be wondering who my new teacher would be, would i get to see familiar faces in the class...

anyway my first day in job was okay ..... i aint assigned to any job, in the office doing web based learning. argh... though it states that every module is 1 hrs, but it doesnt seems like it. i did it for 3 hrs today but i am still unable to finish 1. sob. i think i better work harder tml!! ganbatec!

another thing, i saw many familiar faces, a few of them recognised mi after a few glances. But most of them couldnt recognised mi.... hm... i guessed its becos of my contact lens which makes my eyes look BIGGER!!! well, ppl do change, ppl grow up! Hearing from them that i have changed a lot please mi a little! afterall, its been almost 2 years since i last saw them, travelling to and fro from aus, my experience widen. I see more things. I seriously hope that within these 2 years i have grown up physically and mentally.

ok lar... i am so tired le...... i go and watch tv then.. =)

misunderstanding kills

2008-09-20T14:47:00.002+08:00

misunderstanding kills..... something happened at home again !!! gosh, why are things often like that? seriously i dun feel good being at home.... depressing..... and it's too noisy! damn frustrating lar... maybe in the audit peak, i can jus be drowned with all my work so that i wouldnt be bothered about such nonsense at home ya... how pathetic!!!

EY days

2008-09-13T00:22:00.002+08:00

yeah... it's another week... and next week is the last week of my training. Mixed feelings to the end of this training, i dunno who am i going to work, how late would i have to work, will my senior teach me and be patient with me, is the job a shit job, i am a qualified A1 in the company.. many concerns going through my mind.

didnt actually listen in class for the past few days until yesterday when the trainers taught about Gamx. And that is when stress begins to set in. I was told that there were instances whereby assistant cried because they are unable to complete their work and do the relevant updates of gmax as per required. When i whined to my seniors about that complicated system, they remained silence. I was expecting them to reply saying "it's ok, you get to learn and experience more in the fieldwork". But none of them gave mi this reply. Some of the more experience assistant claimed that we MUST know it. Although there is always someone with more experience in the job, but who can guarantee that the senior isnt nasty, isnt patient. What if the senior expects me to know everything about gamx since i have gone for the training. hm....... i am starting to worry whether am i able to survive for a couple of years in ey. I aint as detailed as auditors, my concentration span is very short, i get drifted apart easily in a conversation and i can be quite lazy at times.....

ok lar i am tired shall continue another time bye

work work work....

2008-09-07T08:00:00.003+08:00

yeah !! i am back from my penang trip le... Other than the boring training, it was fun!!! i didnt really mixed around over there, often staying in my cliques which includes mich, pj, jasmine (another girl in ngee ann) and amy (smu girl and pj's roommate). I am glad to have known jasmine much better, in the past her impression to me was ah lian, unapproachable, unfriendly. However, after this trip, i have gained to like her. Although she might be a little blunt, she is real, fun and helpful. Amy is good too! She's from china, frank and harmless(no hidden agenda). She's really cute!

alright talking about my training... i am actually quite stressed over the fact i am a permanent staff in ey le. i was told that we would have assessment over the training materials and the grade would be recorded. We have to come out with our objectives and seek constant feedback as all these affect our performance bonus. alamak. kill mi!!!!

oh yah, yesterday due to some reasons, i quarrelled with my grandpa. wa!! i bet he has already reached my limits becos i guessed this is really the first time i shouted at him and then made him cried........ whatever lar !!!! all thanks to a bitch at home..who is trying to play politics in this hse!!! you might be smart, but i bet i am smarter than you. Though i might be slightly gong in nature, but i believe after years of education i should know more than you!! bloody 2 head snake!!! know who is the person? my maid!!! -_- !

updates

2008-08-29T09:45:00.002+08:00

alright a little updates about me...

I just finished my temp job in Bossini and goodness me, i am starting to miss them. Though at times i might feel a little left out, overall it was FUN! we gossip, "play" in the office, chit chat, whine to each other, tease each other..... (Fyi, even the manager played with us, she goes cranky at times) she is probably one of the best manager i have ever seen, she doesnt have that kind of snob look and that kind of GAO GAO ZAI SHANG look.... very approachable and generous.. she always giggles and when she giggles, her eyes is no where seen! how cute!!!

to be frank, i was a little demotivated to go to work everyday, becos of the long hours and the pay was really low. After deducting CPF, i am really left with peanuts.Despite the low pay and long hours, i like my colleagues there. Love them.. Muakkkssss......

yesterday was my last day, got gifts and treat from them. I really dislike the feeling of leaving. Yesterday, i really have the urged to stay on... Anyway, it's impossible!!!!!! next week reporting to ey le. I wasnt looking forward to it. i would be a lifeless soul floating in ey. I worked over there before, got to know the company's culture a little, for some reasons, i got a bad feeling being a perm staff there, furthermore, i am going to be in another team. SCary!!! wish me luck! (butterflies in my stomach keke)

bad becoming worse

2008-07-28T16:37:00.002+08:00

" i think it is better for you to be in aus" my mum exclaimed.

ever since i am back from aus, i have been living on pills almost everyday. flu, fever, sore throat, vomiting, diarrhoea, gastric pain, swollen eyes.... u name it.. i have it....

my mum asked mi whether am i like that in aus..... i believe i was much stronger in aus than i am in singapore. although i fell sick more often than my friends, but i didnt go to the extent of living on pills....... damn.. i am only 22...

i started my temp job a week ago. and within this week, i was on mc twice....

i am getting sian le.... sian of singapore, sian of work............. i jus feel so sleepy everyday, let mi sleep forever......

when ppl realised that i am going to be an auditor in sept, they would sigh and then tell mi the horrors of this occupation... tian arh.... can someone pls tell mi some good points of it....i dun really look forward to this job anymore... boooo.....

ok lar... gtg =)

he is cute

2008-06-28T20:24:00.002+08:00

i have been selling things lately... and then i got to know this korean boy. Goodness mi! he is soo cute!!! not as in looks wise, his actions, his expression is cute ! he got a si wen look, clean cut, he seems quite guai...keke...... but he is only 18. bleah !!!!!

everytime when i knocked on his door,i would hear his footsteps running towards the door and opened the door with a blur look. And then when i said something is free, his greedy look appeared, "free??!!" (raising his eye brows). After confirming that it's true, he would give a paiseh and contended look.... and then he would say "thank you so much, i get so many things for free, hehe"..

he is called charley...... cute name too hahah...

reflections

2008-06-24T19:27:00.003+08:00

exams done!!!! and i have been slacking lately, doing some sai gang for px and joan ... machaim their Fatimah liao.. lolz ....

hm..started to feel a bit she be de to leave melb.. sob sob.......... i seriously like staying alone over here, i like snoozing til noon, i like to manage my own time, i like the tranquility over here, i like my private space over here..

leaving this place for good..... makes mi sad!!! sob.... though my friends, my family, my future lies in singapore...

Joyce asked mi a qn a couple of months ago... she said, mh do u ever thought of working in melb..

and i replied no becos all my friends and family are in singapore and i dunno how racist the ppl here might be.. so i am afraid.........

i guess i would go back for a few years first... if i am sick of singapore le... i might come over here to work. yeah.... overcome my fears and face the challenge...

miracles do happen!!! hm.. jus like how i have survived 2 years over here. Although there are tough times, but i somehow manage to overcome it.... (thank god!!!!) these 2 years are like a dream to me....

i remembered 2 years back, making this decision takes a lot of courage!After making this decision i don't dare to reconsider, i kept making myself real busy to numb myself, i went to send joan and px off (who left one week before mi)... and i cried harder than anyone else in the airport... hm..not becos i missed them, i couldnt imagine myself leaving my parents jus like they do...

During the 2 years...
i work hard, i knew that there is no turning back.... When i am sick, i dun call home, when i am down i dun call home, i wept secretly over here... becos i knew that the decision i have made means that i have to take care of everything all by myself. Staying afar from my family, i reminded myself that i must not make them worry and hence i acted strong and independent in front of them.... I dreamt of myself being in singapore very often and feeling disappointed when i woke up in the morning realising that i am still in melb. I feel sad whenever it comes to my bday, i cried hard when my reunion dinner is ruin.....

But nevertheless, i am thankful for having such a learning experience, i am thankful that i managed to survive. I have seen different faces of ppl, i learnt to accept, to compromise. I learnt to take care of others when i am abroad, i learnt to be more generous.

Going to another stage of my life le... feeling jittery..... though i would be working with the same colleagues, but there is something i muz bear in mind... " ppl might not treat mi the same like when i was an intern"... ppl starts demanding for things.... faces changed... how scary..... anyway jus have to learn to be stronger....

argh

2008-06-12T17:43:00.002+08:00

argh!!!! save me!!! i am seriously drowning for my audit!!!!! sob........ was reading my past year audit paper (still reading..) and i realised there is a lot of things i dunno, it is a really tough paper lar... i dun even know the answer for a 1 mark question.... damn !!!! i am seriously in deep shit lar.... booo booo boooo.........pls let mi conquer it! i wan to go home....

anyway was quite pissed off by someone today........
to miss xx,
i didnt step on your toes, so pls dun come and provoke me !! and pls mind your own business. if you think you are so great, then dun seek help from mi then..... you wanna prove yourself to be on the higher end, but then pls dun use mi to compare with you ok... if you think we are different then let it be! i dun care!

Gosh !

2008-06-08T16:17:00.002+08:00

Gosh! I feel so disgusted about this exam!!!!! argH !! save mi ! probably i am seriously looking forward to going home and marks an end of my study period! and that's why it makes it period of time very very nan guo.... at times when i am studying, i would start imagining myself in singapore, doing the things i like, having 2 months holiday, shopping, chilling out with my friends, nua ing at home, going to with my ah ma and mum, going to genting with my family.... argh !!! really wanna go to that time. But right now i am stuck with all my notes, my books... gosh !! sheng bu ru si!!!! jiu ming arh !!!

i look forward to 12am every night, so that i can officially rest my brain and sleep.. but when i wake up the next morning, i felt disgusted again !!!

Yucks yuckssssssssssssssssss

argh

2008-06-04T20:48:00.002+08:00

ARGHHHHH!!!!!! It's a torture, seriously wanna disappear into thin air now........
having my exams next week, hm.. and it would last for 2 weeks lar... exams is really crazy, studying is horrible!!!! anyway, i am definite that in future when i am working, i would not say " studying is better, if i am given a second chance to study more, i would have studied harder ". Mind you, I seriously think that is CRAP. the grass is always greener on the other side ya....

anyway, seems like for every exams, i am like studying harder and harder..... know what, i memorised my audit until when in the middle of the night 4 am, the audit notes kept running across my mind when i am asleep, yucks.... but anyway in the morning i am glad that i had a good dream though... know what i dreamt of ? i dreamt that i have finished my exams, shopping with one of my friends.... feeling disappointed when i woke up realising that it is jus a dream..... shit ! right now, my brain is dead, my eyes are tired, my motivation is gone, pressure sets in, but i will survive right........ i hope i will!!!!

my friend has got this nick : "nu li bu yi ding hui ying, dan bu nu li yi ding hui shu"
i find it very meaningful... and i really keep reminding myself of this statement. hm.. for those ppl having exams all the best, i hope this statement can also act as a motivational mechanism for you"

huimei, peilim, suqing, siting, lihui... etc etc... JIA YOU !!!!! let's pia together....

argh

2008-05-10T13:30:00.002+08:00

argh ... exams drawing nearer.... but i dun have the motivation to study......
at this point of time, i would hope that someone would give mi a real PUSH ! afterall it is the final lap and i do not wish to regret.... i dun wan myself to say " i should have study harder " ..

goodness mi, looking at the stack of notes and tutorials on my study table makes mi scare!!!! fyi, my exam timetable for this sem sux big time..... 2 killers placed back to back... argh....

Nevertheless, may god bless mi....

updates

2008-05-06T18:26:00.002+08:00

wa... it's long since i last blog.....
firstly, suqing welcome back... hehe glad that you have enjoyed yourselves...

hm.... last thurs 2 interesting incident... (my audit paper)
incident 1... i went downstairs to throw rubbish, and the lift wasnt working, so i walked down the stairs. on the ground floor they have this door so that i can get out.. but the door knob is dropping off, so i carefully push it down, hopefully i dun further damage the door. After throwing the rubbish, i realised i cant go up to my apartment because the door knob outside is missing. gosh.. i asked the receptionist downstairs...

me: hi, i understand you all are fixing the lift, but maybe i know how can i go up to my apartment, becuase the door knob is misssing
recep: (dun really understand wat i was talking about, went to take a look) where is the door knob ??!!! ( staring at mi as if i was the culprit)
me: huh ?! i dunno.. so is there any other way i can go up because i need to rush to skool
recep: oh goodness mi, it's unbelievable!! hm... i think you have to wait for others to come down before you can open that door
me: grrrrr....

incident 2: i was at the postoffice buying stamps, where pink
cashier: wa!!! you look soooo pink!! glasses pink, bottle pink, pink top
me: hahaha it is jus coincident, can i have a stamp to singapore please.
cashier: alright, there you go
me: thanks
cashier: you can post you letter outside the RED box, too bad it is not a pink box
me: .... LOL
cashier: so are u a student in melb uni
me: yes
cashier: so wat course are u taking
me: oh... it is commerce.
cashier: oh i see, so is it pink in colour??
me: duhz... it is blue
cashier: oh you should have requested the skool to have it in pink

sunday, went to city to shop !! yeah finally manage to get something.... a jacket, a top and a belt...hehe... shall pamper myself after the common test.. hehe

tue.... while preparing to go to skool, i almost fainted..... i felt suffocated after a hot bath, thereafter while i was washing my bottle, blur vision, feel like vomitting and dizzy, i quickly squat down..... phew, this method is really useful..... (hm.. i would be fine.... yeah... )

argh

2008-04-27T12:28:00.002+08:00

argh !!!! i have just realised how disgusting auditing can be..... grrrrrrrrrrrr.... i think i still prefer finance. Although auditing is related to accounting, it is so wordy. Gosh!!! seems like i am just doing a quantity reading instead of a quality reading.

argh.. wat should i do? should i stop reading some information? how how how !!!!!! nothing gets into my head... i have been reading and sleeping........ it gets soo dry.......

mixed

2008-04-23T13:49:00.002+08:00

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was a little pissed off, a little depressed today. Cos when i was in singapore i saw this audit assessment book, so i bought it (dun even know it is useful lo)... i told a few of my friends about it, then one of them said that if she might need to borrow it from mi... then i was like ok....but anyway she remained nonchalant about the whole thing lar...anyway it is jus some supplementary arh....

then anyway, as common test is approaching, so i brought it to skool thinking that i can let my friends photocopy the qns to work on it over the weekends...

in the end i am being named NIAO !!! they said that i need to tell them when they were in singapore, or i should have bring it out earlier.... it's true that getting it in singapore it relatively cheaper but it is useful?? i dunno.... they arent buying a finance textbook(which they might need it more than this), would they buy this one? It is not as if i have been secretly working out all the qns, i only did one chap and find that it is quite useless.... thereafter, i left it on the shelf collecting dust le...

but anyway hello!!!!! i still show it to u all lo, plus it wasnt after the test or after exam arh..... it wasnt the day before test, it is next week thurs..... i also havent work on it, so what is the big hoo ha about it...

so disappointing... hmph!!!!! pls think of the times when i shared my notes, type out qns every week, telling u all the tips for corp law which my teacher gave mi, before giving mi that name NIAO !!! boooo... i wan to go home........

my bday

2008-04-13T11:06:00.002+08:00

my friends celebrated my bday in advance........

yesterday did project and then went to chomp chomp to have dinner..... whooo my fav place !!!! wahahah.... thereafter they have a cake and they put all the candles ard the whole cake expecting mi take out the candles with my mouth.... how irritating....... anyway... everything turned out well.... then we went over to take neo print...nice !!!! oh yes... i got a givenchy concealer and a red panty from them -_-!!!! wahahaha

anyway.... yesterday they wanted to buy wine to px's hse to continue partying.... and know what ?? when px was at the counter making the payment and the cashier insist on checking on peijun and my ID..... (joan and px has got their ID with them)..... LOL !!!!! do i look like i am below 18 when in fact i am already 22???!!!! anyway... it's a compliment lar... wahahahahaha..... but i am lucky, we didnt get to buy the wine yesterday cos pj and i did not bring out ID out! phew ! i am spared !!!

ok lar.. gtg... peeps enjoy !!!! =)

my work is never ending

2008-04-06T20:05:00.002+08:00

my work is never ending! busy busy lately... and will be getting busier. Goodness mi.......

I read have tons of readings for every week plus projects and common tests are coming.... gosh... really hope that i can pull through these few weeks.... I seriously hate group projects, i dislike having free loaders in project groups, neither do i like perfectionist in the group...... having free loaders in the group, i would have to help the person do their part, having perfectionist in the group i would be stressed up fearing that i am unable to meet her expectations... hence i would still prefer individual work, own time, own target haha

anyway i ought to be happy that i am not in ntu, my friends in ntu are all drowned in projects.

ok lar... shall finish up my tut!!! have a good day =)

random

2008-04-05T20:39:00.002+08:00

jus had my steamboat at px and joan hse (whooo... shiok !!!) but it goes to show i am putting on weight again. damn! This semester i can really feel the fats on my body.. growing horizontally.... i am super puzzled, in the past i also eat this much arh.... but why is it that last sem i can be slimmer le.... hmmmm... ponder.... anyway...

oh yes, yesterday went shopping with them, and got myself a top and a soap. The soap is freaking ex lar, it costs $18, from bodyshop. Joan recommended it to mi, she said that it can tone up my fats.... hopefully it works lar... then when i was at the cashier making payment, the cashier told mi, oh that's great, it's effective.... haha at that moment, i felt AN SHUANG... hahahaha.... happy with the good buy =)

They also brought mi to see the cosmetics at myer.... there is this concealer givenchy(think it is spelt like that) seems good but it cost $50 + and a blusher (rose something) $60+, it seems not too bad.... the blusher is quite special, it is 4 colours together. i shall get those when i am back in singapore at the duty free store... hahaha... good investment before working hahah....

oh yes, i am seldom on msn le..... started to dislike msn. at times i really feel technology draws ppl apart, makes ppl feel distance.

2008-04-01T15:36:00.009+08:00

goldcoast

2008-03-30T10:14:00.002+08:00

back from goldcoast...... FUN !!!!!!!
nv regreted going over there... it was fun being with that group of friends =) we went to two themeparks, the movieworld and the dreamworld.... and i have conquered all thriller rides... weee.... seriously the rides look more scary than if you were to take it....hahahah... since i have conquered all these... i guess i should be fit enough to go for bungee jumping and sky diving...(maybe) we also took several pictures with cartoon characters, like tweety etc.....

1 day for shopping at habour town..... i only manage to find a lonsdale shorts which was on discount.... hence i only spent ard $20 ... my friends spend like a few hundred lo.... so envy..nvm shall save money....

i have got to say....

2008-03-20T22:57:00.002+08:00

i have got to say" woman are the scariest creatures on earth"!!! Have u heard of this phrase? nu ren xin hai di zhen?? yup indeed it is very true.

whooo

2008-03-19T23:09:00.002+08:00

whooooo.... i have got something to announce... i have gotten a place in EY... whooooo.... without interview... how lucky.... hehe....

....

2008-03-17T18:35:00.002+08:00

The weather has been hot lately.... 40 degrees...... how crazy.......my room has turned into a sauna room, see wen's room is on fire... wahahaha... suqing..probably this would be a significant reason for mi becoming crazy. lolz

oh yes.... mich has gotten a priority offer letter from Ey... meaning she was offered without interview.... how lucky!!!!! i really do hope that i would get that letter too..... i hope to secure a place there, i also hope that i dun have go through interview.... *pray*

okie dokie...... i shall go and finish up my tut le...... see ya.....

childish childish

2008-03-15T22:14:00.002+08:00

grrrr... pissed off!!! I really have a bunch of childish friends... or probably gonna say that they are JUS TOO FREE.....
Is disturbing mi soo fun?? Cant u tell that at times i am pissed ?? Anyway i jus gonna say at times there mus really be a limit lar...... it's not that i am petty lar, but i jus dun see the FUN in it........
peeps u all ping ping li..... do u like to be taken snapshots of photos while u were eating? do u like your friends to post it on their friendster display pic your ugliest photo? do you like you friends to post your video on you being drunk on the youtube?

one word... too FREE.. wuliao......
it's bad being even tempered, it's bad having a blur looK, it's bad having a Ms nice, easily appeased look....

At times when i am real pissed, trying to show some frustration but no one can see it... argh!!! and they continued doing rubbish.... argh!!!!! i wan to go for plastic surgery.....

missing home

2008-03-10T19:30:00.002+08:00

missing home today...this morning, i have jus realised how much i missed home.......i realised almost everyday, when i am asleep, i would forget that i am currently in melb... cos my walls are thin and hollow, anyone who talks outside my door, i would have heard it..... so it seems as if every morning, i would have treated my neighbour's voice as my father's..... when i am awake, i would be shocked to see myself alone in the room.... booo....

new year's resolution

2008-03-09T09:08:00.003+08:00

ha! in the first quarter to 2008, i have thought of my new year's resolution....
1. ) lose weight....after joyce came over to melb last year, my weight didnt decrease......... which in bad lar... i put on 2000g when joyce was here... most importantly, everyone feedbacks to me that i have grown horizontally......

2.) i shall try to reduce the dark rings ard my eyes.....it's bad, getting worst....

3.) i would enjoy all i can in melb... my last semester....

yup... ganbatec!!!!
oh yes, met up with mich and clara for dinner yesterday.... yeah !! steamboat!! but seriously i prefer singapore's steamboat ..... the variety is more.... and in singapore they would have all their food place on the table, and u can jus pick anything from it .... anyway it was fun! then we went to see fireworks...shall post up the pics one day =)

oh yes.... i bought myself a clubbing bag yesterday !!! happie !!!! hehe......

hooray

2008-03-07T09:21:00.002+08:00

oh i have received a letter from joyce, friendship affixed on stamps.... whoo how interesting... anyway, thanks, love it lots... i also miss u.....

erm... skool has started, mi drowned in tons and tons of readings... shit.... but anyway things arent that bad too lar... i am currently taking 3 modules instead of 4.....ENDURE

my mum had a fall the day before yesterday... i called home yesterday, but she sounded really tired, hm... really hope that she would be fine, despite her saying that she was okay......

oh yes... suqing, going to taiwan? or probably in taiwan now... .enjoy ur trip wor!!!

ok shall end here.... =)

hooray

2008-03-03T08:22:00.002+08:00

joan, px and pj are back... hooray!!!! a step closer to july le...... hahaha... anyway... they are loads of fun.... great having them here also.....

oh yes, forgot to mention something yesterday.. kailin helped us to get a good deal in goldcoast dreamworld.... adult tickets with kids price.... so total save about $30.. 5 ppl = $150..... whoo.. happy !!!!! anyway... thanks heaps! really grateful to her :D

ohhh

2008-03-02T20:16:00.002+08:00

oh about my previous post..... my derivatives results... thank god i am quite satisfied with the result... phew heng arh...... when i told my dad about it, he was still claiming credit for it, he said " you see! i told u, taking a subject during summer is good, you see for the next semester you only have 3 subjects, isn't that great?" hahahaha... anyway.... he persuaded me to take summer too lar, so i have to thank him too... =)

oh yes, recently i watched this drama called silence, it was NICE ! it makes my tear glands really active, but anyway that wasnt the main point... i think the actors acted really well, the script is quite well written..except i find that the ending is a little incomplete.. i wan to know what happen to his family......

i need heaps of blessing

2008-02-29T16:36:00.002+08:00

i really need heaps of blessing right now..... in probably half an hour's time i am going to receive my derivatives results online.... our skool has this system whereby we can order our history results slip, so if this derivatives results is release, it would be shown in that result slip. well, it is one way whereby you can know your results earlier....

so see wen got her results le.... now it's my turn ..... argh !! scared.......

I NEED BLESSING!!!!!! BLESS MI!

plans ruined

2008-02-27T09:29:00.002+08:00

there is a lazy bum over here who got herself sicked becos she is really lazy to drink water for the past few days.....and now she has got sore throat, bodyache, and all her plans for today were ruined...... postpone to tml.... boooo.....

yoz....

2008-02-23T23:06:00.002+08:00

was quite disappointed with some things lately, at times i thought to myself... things arent as great as we think, as things starts to reveal, the more disappointed i get...

it's quite true when ppl said that one can turn blind when he stand too near, you can actually get to see the whole picture when u at things from afar. yeah... i am beginning to see the whole picture, standing in aus...... haha

well, learnt not to expect for things to happen.... greater the expectation, greater the disappointment....

things arent that great, so stop dreaming mh !

I WAN TO CLUB !!!!!

2008-02-22T22:43:00.002+08:00

yup..... i am back from my clubbing liao.......... boo it's a torture tonight!!!!! cos we were told that tonight was asian night, but it doesnt seems so! mich and her friend doesnt seems to be comfortable with the crowd so we stood at the side the whole night..... argh!!! u know it is really a torture under such environment but dun get to dance.... er... i dun blame them lar...i know wat are their worries, afterall we are the minority with no guys around, so if we accidentally knocked onto someone they might be nasty......

ARGH !! really wanna fly back spore to club!!!! super duper gian !!!! ppl bring mi !!!!!

whhooo....

2008-02-22T08:33:00.002+08:00

i am beginning to enjoy my days in melbourne.....done with my exams, er.. it was ok... jus that i gave up on 5 marks ... sob......

anyway, on wed i went over the sw and mich hse to bake cake and Lao Yu Sheng.... It's fun really fun..... we cut all the carrot and lettuce for the yu sheng... then when i was pouring the ingredients to the plate... mich was telling mi that i need to say some da ji da li words..... so we were there, gong xi fa cai, xue ye jing bu, sheng ti jian kang..etc etc.... then, we ran out of words, so i went on to say, TIO BEI PIO, TIO TO TO, TIO DUA CHAI..all of us were laughing out loud... haha how fun can that be arh.... it's like these are things we do back home with our family, these preparation are done by our family, but over here, we suggest how we should do by the observation back home....

oh yes talking about the bday cake, it was meant for my friend sherly whose bday is on the new year's day.... hehe i know it is a little belated but anyway i was busy mugging for the past week and i dun have an oven to bake my cake....anyway was glad that she seems to be quite happy about it....

oh yes... today i woud be making agar agar to contribute to a bday party of threesome..... or probably twosome..... and it would be going to clubbing with mich and her friend xin yu tonight.. whooo.... quite excited about it... though i do not have a decent bag to go along with...

haiz

2008-02-18T23:52:00.002+08:00

haizhaiz haiz.... i have exams tml ..and i cant sleep since yesterday... time check: 3 am now.... and i am going to wake up at 6.25 tml..... SHIT !!!!!

i wasnt really stressed over the paper.... but i am super duper stressed that i cant sleep !!! goodness mi!!!! argh.... condition right now: brain super duper dead, but still physically awake!! tried all sorts of different ways to sleep le.... arghh.....

WA

2008-02-17T08:41:00.003+08:00

Wa..... it seems like i havent been talking to my friends back in spore for a super long time liao.....
nv see me online at night right.... booo.... i have been trying hard to discipline myself.... so i went to bed at 12 or 12plus... er... which is spore time 9 plus..... who can be online at that time !!!!????

hm..... oh yes..... my friends getting acca results soon, peeps have confidence in yourself.... what's done cannot be undone..... what matters is that you have already tried your best!!
go and enjoy first lar........

random

2008-02-15T14:51:00.002+08:00

ohhhh goodness mi !! edison how could u????!!!!!

anyway if u are wondering what am i talking about.... i am talking about the edison's scandal.... yucks... yan yi quan hao hei an wor !!!!!!!! scary.... it is society too polluted or am i too innocent??!!! wahahahah...... ok lar... i go study liao.....

argh!!!

2008-02-10T10:39:00.000+08:00

wasnt happy, no mood to do anything, some problems at home again....

every dark cloud has a silver lining...is it true??? i really hope it is...... argh.... i am losing faith...
i hated myself, i wasnt there when she needed mi, all i could do was to sit here and do nothing... i felt helpless..........

i dislike the world i am living in, so materialistic, so fake.....

oh no!!!!

2008-02-08T15:17:00.000+08:00

i seriously think at times i ought to be slapped!!!!!!!! today i was freaking rude to one of my "friend", er course mate i would say.....got to know him becos he jus happened to sit beside mi for one of the tut class and he borrowed my notes to photocopy........ but seriously we arent really considered friends lar.... those hi and bye..... probably would chat a bit like oh are u going to tut later... and stuff..... those you de mei de....
but today.... while i was mingling with my friends, i saw him...... seriously without thinking through, i walked away..... when i saw him, first thing that come to my mind was... oh no !!!! i cant continue to talk with my friends liao... er overall i was seriously engaged in that conversation lar........
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so rude !!!!!!!!felt a very guilty to do so.... really detest myself.. do things without thinking through.... probably that is why i ended up with so few friends... sob....

another thing happened today... mich, sw and i was supposed to have steamboat today in this restaurant, but i think becos today is chu 2, it wasnt opened.... so we went to another restaurant to have tim sum, which was highly recommended by sw...... to our disappointment, not many dian xin is available, and the service sucks !!!!!!!!!!! the lady boss told her staff to collect money from us first while we were still eating...... she sounds grumphy and said very loudly that the restaurant is closing at 4 pm. However we werent informed about that when we came into the restaurant..... it is not as if we started eating in the restaurant since 1 pm.....we were only there at about 3ish..... anyway at about 4 she started slamming things to show her discontent........we were sooo pissed off by her attitude, i mean u are the lady boss le, its ok if you declare holiday and not work lo, you wan to earn more money and yet this is the service u serve, moreover, you know that it is a chinese new year, being a chinese wouldnt you think that it is a joyous occasion... nobody wants to patronise your restaurant and receive this kind of attitude esp on such occasion.... ok back to the topic, i called the lady boss for refill of our tea becos none of the staff was ard... the waitress who served us when we came in was not ard, probably in the kitchen..... i called her twice loudly.... but she ignored !!!!! SHIT !!! then when we were leaving, she finally looKed up and gave a fake smile..... disgusting!!!!!

new year eve ....

2008-02-06T13:35:00.000+08:00

this is probably my worst new year eve ever...

1. i brought a box of pineapple tarts over to aus.. but it turned mouldy... so have to throw it away......

2. took out my chicken from the fridge today but realised it wasnt frozen..... though i knew that the chicken wasnt fresh, i still go ahead to cook it..... stir fry it with veggies and onion...... to my disappointment, the chicken tasted horrible... i bet if i were to finish that whole pot, i would have ended up in the royal melbourne hospital.... anyway... there goes my reunion meal lar !!!!

shit!!!! this would not happen back in spore ok !! grrrrr..... it's bad jus bad!!!! really get to appreciate the significance of reunion dinner...... though it might be a simple meal, though the food might be the same for every year, but...... it's the feeling whereby everyone gets together for a meal... boooooooo... i wanna go home.......

alright.. things arent that bad lar.... i am going to have my reunion dinner with my friends also... but not today.... and probably going to see how ppl celebrate cny over here....still waiting for confirmation for the singing competition over here... hahaa....

alright.. gtg... peeps enjoy ur cny!!!

updates

2008-02-02T08:32:00.000+08:00

i think i am going to have high cholesterol, and then heart attack... argh... 12 eggs per month (3 weeks) 4 eggs every week ... argh !!!!! i tot we should only limit to 2 eggs per week?? fyi, eggs do have expiry date..... so i have to finish everything within that period.... in the past i would share the eggs with joan and px, but now they are not here, i have to finish it all by myself.... sob.... yesterday, felt that my chest wass aching..... and after which .... decide to do some exercise... i think i brisk walked for 3 hours...... skool to city and then back home... super exhausted under such hot weather.... i really hope that it would burn down some calories.....

hm.......who says i can only do new year shopping in spore... wahaha i went to melbourne's chinatown yesterday.... had a feel of the new year over here... hm... not too bad, they do sell new year decorative items...... and they do play those dong dong dong xiang song in the shops..... then i bought 3 identical new year couplets with the wording "xue ye jing bu"... one for myself and another 2 for sw and mich.... hahahah... hope they would like it lar.....

then i also bought, dried longans, pineapple cookies to replace pineapple tarts, and kuey lapis.... er... i think my house have this tradition to eat kuey lapis every new year..... getting real excited for new year though i am over here..... i can really imagine the reunion dinner back home with my relatives and family, the new year visiting to my auntie's place, the ppl who would come to my house, squeeze with the thousands of crowds in chinatown, the wonderful interesting kua nian programs on the television.... arghhhhh i gonna miss all these........

anyway, it's an experience being in melbourne for new year too....... u prepare your reunion dinner yourself with ur friends, you make sure that you abide to the tradition which you always follow...... cool!!!!

alright then, got to go... anyway peeps dooooo enjoy ur new year back in spore ok.... when u are mass sending sms on the 7 jan, pls really do remember that u have a friend here.. .and forward the msg to mi..... hahahahahah i would certainly reply to ur msg.... hahahah

updates !!

2008-01-30T12:29:00.001+08:00

i have been updating frequently wor.... peeps pls update more often...

oh ok... new year is coming so is my exam.... next week is my last week of my summer semester course..... and then after celebrating new year with sw and mich... got to start mugging liao....

oh got back my mid sem test..thank god i passed !!!! hurray....... was a bit worried for the past few days, the paper is super tricky and on that day i wasnt in a right condition to think.... anyway.... i'm lucky... anyway, i am still going to remind myself of the olevel's mistake... never be complacent....

oh good sleep for the past few nights.... strategy to apply is no afternoon naps.. though i am feeling sleepy and tired right now -.-

basically i have been watching shows and more shows for the past few days........ currently watching the duo niu yao bu yao... lol although i dislike liwei, i am seriously running out of shows to watch..... peeps pls do inform mi of any nice shows... it would be best if it is in a language whereby i can understand.. haha

alright.. i shall end off here... happy new year in advance... i bet everyone is in festive mood liao wor !!!

updates !!

2008-01-27T19:46:00.000+08:00

alright updates.........

jus had my common test a few days ago... hm.. it's horrible lar... 1 hour paper, really not in a condition to think !!!! my concepts are there, but application wise... i need some time to think and figure things out.. anyway jus hope for the best... *pray*

was jux looking through my previous entry..mentioning about my sleeping disorder problem... haiz... things didnt change for the better... (suqing i know u said that i have a mat, hence i can sleep whichever direction i am comfortable) But.. my room is a rectangular, so.. i cant even squeeze the mattress to another direction... it would only be in the same direction as my bed.. haha....anyway.. there was one night i even attempted to sleep on the width of my bed.... see how bad can it be ???!!! hm....well i was trying to sleep early like 12 plus these days, and TAHANing not to take afternoon naps, hopefully it might help lar...

oh yes... shopping spree lately.... went to the city and DFO at essendon.... DFo is really disappointing, not much diff from the one at spencer street (so joyce, no loss to u).. haha...but i bought a roxy denim skirt over there at only 20 bucks... how lucky!! simply love shopping over here.... i would say that u can find 20 bucks skirt everywhere in spore but u cant find 20 bucks roxy one over there...... if u consider the brand, then shopping over here would be a definite choice ....

hm.. i also caught an eye for this top in cotton on.... it is those shirt.. but it is really long.... it isnt meant to be a skirt... but it looks good with shorts and jeans.... oh pls..... sale pls....

i have a sudden urge to go home (sporE) jus now.... really feel that this isnt the place where i belong.... today when my friends and i were walking along essendon road, there are drivers who purposely horned and then laugh at us.. -_-!!!

haha

2008-01-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

yup.. i loved to blog on weird timing ... hahaha... anyway jus wanna get away from my notes and tutorial... let mi complain how disgusting derivatives is....... ok my bad for not start doing my tut yesterday... well i started doin my tut jus now at 11pm... gosh!!! i bet u can really see how slack i am this summer... goodness mi....

ok for the past few days, i have been watching dramas and kpoing.... was so mad at myself when i really kpo for a couple of hours and then at night trying hard to finish my work and get enough sleep...argh... new year... i better start reflecting on myself....

erm... tml is my last lesson before my mid sem break approaches... wanna go some interesting place.... but as i looK through the tourist guide... couldnt find anything much... haiz... apparently my friends dont like to shop as much as i do...so i think shopping is out unless i wanna shop alone....Wat else should i do this summer????? ideas pls.... i doubt i can work lar...i ever thought of volunteer work... but...to be frank i would rather do some community work back in spore than over here... wat else can i do???

oh yes... this march i am going to goldcoast.. yup confirm le... pyschoed by my friend who acts pitifully... saving plan start from now ...

back

2008-01-12T01:09:00.000+08:00

alright... i'm back in melbourne lo.... didnt feel very sad when i am leaving spore..hahaha.... probably i am constantly reminding myself that it's gonna be my last sem!!!!

Anyway was quite slack for the past few days.... did study, but have been watching singapore or taiwanese drama too.... it's kinda addictive and allow mi to say that this module which i am taking i super taxing to the brain lar... felt like taking a break after a couple of pages of reading.. and it is really crazy, my mid sem test is on the 25 th jan.... madness.. i am still trying to adapt to the timing here and the weather lar...

oh yes, i have gotten a big problem over here!!! i tend to lose sleep at night!! gosh... started to panic when i feel HIGH at night, or rather when i am super energetic after 2am.... and the more i panic, the higher the probability that i am able to stay wide awake for the whole night... my friends were complaining that i jus refused to adapt to the timing over here, and i have always been living according to spore's timing.... yup, you might have noticed that it is currently 4 am in melb now... why am i still online blogging ???? hahaha!! i went to sleep at 8.30 jus now... and woke up at 2 plus...hm... should i go back to sleep at 6am ?? yah.... my sleeping timing is super abnormal!! but come to think of it, dont u think it is quite great, no one over here to control wat time u have slept and when u muz be in bed... jus sleep as and when u like.... to be frank, i enjoy staying alone... hahahaha..... but in spore, i bet i would be named an unfilial brat if i do so...hahaa

oh yes.. summer over here is horrible... for the past few days, the temperature shot to 40degrees. Imagine staying in sauna with flies ard you... how irritating can that be.. (FYI: if your are experiencing such disgusting weather, and you feel as if you whole room turns into a sauna room, pls CLOSE your window and turn on the fan.... you muz be wondering why do i close the window.. it is because u are preventing the hot air from entering into your room) well, sw taught mi this, and it really works....

ok lar... i guess i got to go....... bye...

To joyce: Monday working lo...... all the best....
To suqing: girl...... stay positive in life lar... it's a new year!!! talk to me when u need someone to talk to....

happy bday sis

2008-01-03T23:40:00.000+08:00

HaPpy bDay SiS!!!! er.... hope that u can find ur mr right this year !!!wahaha... sad plus a good news.......... that guy whom i have mentioned in the previous post is Attached!!!! so... anyway.. no more evil thoughts from mi le...... cant intro to my sis already... well the good news is he is attached with one of my good friend in the company.... haha.. anyway need some time to digest this news a bit...... quite shocked about it....

ok... the meet up with them was okie,we went to this Irish pub called the molly in boat quay.. quite good ambience, but the food was okie... today i realised that there is slight awkward silence.... probably becos most of the ppl we all know have left... not much gossips...and i dun really have much news to update them lar....

hahaha..... anyway... we were drinking too... there is this beer called bulmar i think... not very sure if i have gotten the name correctly, it is kind of sweet... and 4.5%..... taste much much better than the normal beer sold in ntuc.. a big achievement to mi, i could finish a big bottle all by myself!!! whooo... how incredible ... but... my face turned extremely red, head's spinning a little, and my heart was beating real fast..... my colleagues thought that i am super drunk and even offered to send mi home.... anyway i am SOBER !! i can drink one ok ....

oh ..seewen is on the plane now...... wow!!! time flies.. and we are going back... sian !!!

haPpy New YeaR......

2008-01-02T22:23:00.000+08:00

wHoo..... HaPpy New YeaR......having mixed feelings about this year... feeling a little dejected that i wasnt able to celebrate my new year in spore, and would be going back to melb in a few days times. On the other hand, feeling gay and excited cos i would be graduating soon......... whoo.... proceeding into another stage of life... i am seriously grateful during my internship period back when i am in ngee ann, it really exposed me to many things and also it make mi more certain where my interest and future lies..... thank god.... 2007 has been a really fulfilling and blessed year for me.... though nothing big had changed unlike the previous year, this year is jus smooth sailing......

2008.... my resolution.....i hope that all my wishes would come true....... wahahaha.... greedy.... anyway like wat ppl say .... time waits for no man, time flies... indeed i hope that 2008 would be a fruitful year for mi and also for those ppl ard mi. stay healthy and have a prosperous year !!!!

HaPpy New YeaR !

belated christmas!

2007-12-28T23:06:00.000+08:00

happy belated christmas..... tried to blog a few days ago... but something's wrong with the blog.... erm.... ok for my christmas eve , went shopping and dinner with geylang clan... and then went to have a mini countdown party in huimei's house..... It is CHOCOLATE fudge party.... boo... dun actually enjoy it like what normal girls would be... anyway was down with flu and sore throat that day too....

all the activities planned for the night like uno, mahjong and dvds were not carried out...... well they did play some dvds... but i was kinda distracted... so in the end went to bed at 2am...

ok then on the 26th, went to yam cha with my family members.....afterwhich went to meet my sec sch mates....... had fun though i kept coughing!!! we jus bitch about anything!!!

27th, went watch alvin and the chipmunks with joyce. Also, i went to buy my auditing book in sim... whhooo .... damn cheap!!! ok probably half of the price sold in clementi bookstore!!! proud of myself to get such a good deal for myself..... Ah... yes.... back to the show... it is interesting, hilarious.... u guys should watch if u havent....

then 28th... i went swimming with my sis in the afternoon... and then at night meet up with elaine and weelin... quite fun catching up with them.... to be frank was a bit gan cheong to meet up with them... afraid that their would be awkward silence, but phew... it was okay.... jus that at the end we ended up shopping in giant.... really passing time...... i bet weelin mus be damn bored !!! well he looks bored... wahaahahah.... but... seriously i find him quite good, quite accomodating, er jus that a little childish at times.... wahahah..... hm... still have the thought of introducing my sis to him !!!! it would be really great having him as my bro in law !!!! god pls pull this red thread.... haha i muz be out of my mind....

and elaine !!! fun... i have lots to talk to her...... and it is like i can jus tell her anything under the sun..... she would jus share her experience with u too, and gossips !! hahaha....

busy busy!!!!

2007-12-26T22:50:00.000+08:00

gosh

2007-12-23T12:31:00.000+08:00

gosh... i was ill le.... yesterday went out with siting, suqing and ziwei to get siting's 21st pressie.... for greater details go to siting blog... haha..... but anyway she looked real good on that dress... hehe..... hm..then headed back home.... was feeling rather sick le... whole body started to ache....

thereafter, slept for a while...started to feel feverish..... tossed and turned for the whole night... either i am shrivelling, or i feel hot...ended up sleeping with my legs on the floor to feel the cold marbles and my body warmed under my blanket on the mattress.....

It's pity that i have to pang seh my geylang clan for the cycling session on monday........ many activities lined up this week.... hope that i can recover soon....

Angry

2007-12-21T14:31:00.000+08:00

Angry Hmph !!!!!
horrible property agent i have gotten...... she is freaking inefficient and unreasonable, and she often resort to threatening her tenants. Hello!!! it is not as if i am not going to pay up my rent, i merely want to extend my lease to 4july 08 which is a reasonable date what. my exam ends at the end of june and then a couple of days for me to pack up.

And it seems like i have been emailing her the date, but no confirmation from her!!! she either give mi the wrong date or wrong lease term. wth!!! cant u read the email properly. and now she even said that if you wanna extend ur lease term to 4th july 08, you have to come to the office by 3 pm today, despite the fact that i kept telling her that i am currently not in melb. how am i suppose to fly there !!! hate her!!!!!

if not for the sake that my apartment is rather near the skool and i am lazy to move ard... i would have moved out !!! what kind of attitude!

grrrr... anyway... on a lighter note..

Happy bday to mei qing !!! had fun meeting her... ^^

Whooo

2007-12-19T02:36:00.000+08:00

watched se jie with suqing today... nice show.... but i seriously pity the girl for sacrificing so much for this film... wonder how long can she last in this industry....this suqing is really funny, i bet she is too traumatised by the "intimidating" scenes in the show.... er..well for me, kinda prepared, as i have already heard a lot of comments about this show.

oh yes! another thing... i have finally bought myself donuts from donut factory... hooray... i have been wanting to buy it since donuts becomes an "IN" thing in spore... but the queue turns me off.... but today, LUCKY US manage to get our donuts within 10 mins... hooray !!

had fun today, million thanks to Ms Koh
thanks for accompanying my grandma, thanks for the ride home, thanks for the dou jiang you tiao, thanks for accompanying me to watch this show (though i think u muz have enjoyed it too, wahaha), thanks for lending a listening ear and bitching ard with mi, haha...... thanksssss........

Back here blogging

2007-12-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

ok little updates about myself, hm.. i bet i am really leading a tai tai life right now... wahaha...
i can snooze until 12 or 1pm, and then go online or watch my drama for a while, take occasional naps in the afternoon, and occasional meet ups with my friends in the evening. fei wu fei wu!!!!

i couldnt get used to this type of life when i first returned to spore, but now, it became a habit to me..... lazy to look for a job too.... haha....

oh yes, going to watch se jian ( i think it is spelt like that) tml with suqing.... wee... excited!!! my first R21 show.... and the reviews for it is quite good, and had won several awards in the jing ma jiang...

argh!!!

2007-12-07T08:32:00.000+08:00

Doe it make you happier by making me more worst off????!!!!! pissed pissed pissed... lousy sister i have gotten!!!!

haiz

2007-12-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

haiz... jus got back my results... shit.... did badly..... is it a sign telling mi i shouldnt take honours... shouldnt get PR over there... come back and work.... argh.....
total disappointment with my corporate law.. the module which i am most confident in, but in the end, it's result is the worst!! shit !!!!
i wouldnt blame myself for not working hard enough.... i jus cant figure out why is it so bad!!! argh!!!!

coffee prince

2007-12-06T12:03:00.000+08:00

jus finished my coffee prince... very nice..!!! though in the middle it is a little draggy... but towards the end of the show... it is funny!!!

should go and watch!!! highly recommended.....

me, feeling super jittery today.... should be getting my results today... late afternoon i suppose... hope i do well!!! =) (*pray*)

argh

2007-11-17T18:08:00.000+08:00

argh ... disgusting hot weather..... feeling feverish again... i guessed i can NEVER adapt to hot weather..... often falling ill in spore, seems to be healthy when i am in melbourne, but not anymore when summer approaches.... though i am currently in thick jackets with a blanket on my lap.... a big signal that i am running a fever yah ...... argh !!!

went to skool to study today.... once again.. inefficient... falling asleep in the library a couple of times today... argh.... seriously doomed this time.... i totally have no mood to study for this paper.... a few of my friends finished their exams already, going home soon... and for mi, i am still stuck here mugging... shit shit shit !!!! this time my exam stretch up to nearly one month.... argh!! it is madness!!!! in ngee ann it is approximately 1 or 2 weeks one....

anyway... wee.... joyce is coming !! whhoooo !!! time flies!!!! it seems long when she first told mi that she is coming, and now.... it is less than a week...the weather better be cooling!!!!

alright continue mugging... pray for mi !!! i need much more motivation !

argh

2007-11-06T19:13:00.000+08:00

seldom see mi online for the past few days ??? hm... i have been mugging real hard for the past 2 back to back papers... law and investment... law was ok.. but investment was a total killer... my mind was totally blank during that paper.. though i have studied and memorised heaps of facts and info the day before.. during that paper i was on the verge of tearing.. haha a little exaggeration... probably just have the urge to stand up and tear the exam paper...

but to my relieve, all my friends were complaining that it was a tough paper... hence we are just praying hard that they would moderate ba....

anyway, i am glad that i am just left 2 papers... hurray.. still have no clue how to start studying for it.... and well... have been kind of slacking the whole day today.... goanna chiong tml....

peeps all the best for ur upcoming exams... ai zai ok.... see u

Blessing

2007-10-14T16:30:00.000+08:00

i need big heaps of blessing !!! haha..... well, it's time for mi to start mugging for exams liao... 3 weeks b4 exams... one week set aside for investment and 2 weeks for law... argh... still got one investment assignment to complete within this week.... god !! pls let mi start studying for my investment tml!!! i need time for my law !!! imagine one whole thick textbook of approximately 500 pages to read, plus i feel like drawing out mind map for every chapter... do i have time ??? well, i guess YES if i am discipline enough.. not get distracted easily....

Anyway for those who are mugging.... happy studying... jia you!!!! MSn is really len qing these few days...

oh yes, another thing which makes in ponder for a few days le...i dun actually have to take another extra module for my finance... my skool came out with this policy that i can actually take 3 modules to satisfy majoring in finance... yup which means i might not need to stay here over the summer semester. However, my dad actually persuaded mi to stay over here.... it seems like next sem, which is my last semester gonna be tough... with 2 finance module, 1 audit and another emp (which i heard it seems like ob with many many projects).... should i stay over here.... should i lighten my workload in my last semester???? argh !! give mi a few days more to think....

hm...

2007-10-05T00:43:00.000+08:00

hm.... i bet for these 2 months, there are 2 words that would keep appearing in my mind... that is... AI ZAI !! lol....

hm... about 4 more weeks to my exam... havent started revising it. i am still doing all my reading up for all my tutorials... haiz... but my friends started revising lo... stressed sia.....

oh well, i can say it is probably human nature... get gan chiong...when the others have started studying way earlier than you.... damn!

oh man this sem is kinda stressing... 2 law subjects is taxing for my brain and time... simply dunno how to prepare notes for it... still so lost.. omg !!

how.. should i start studying now?? but ... i am not used to focusing on 2 subjects now and throwing another 2 til the end le.... hm.. i think i shall continue reading up and doing tutorials first.... boo..i indeed need some blessings hehe...

gotten back my investment results today.. it is bad!!!!! argh!! shit! anyway got to buck up for my exams le...