+Sunday, April 25, 2010+
i bet my blog mus be filled with millions of spider webs. yes it been long since i last blog.
so how have i been lately ? hmmmm....... probably slightly depressed, but still trying to move on. This year was indeed a bad year for me.. i have lost faith, i have lost trust, and most importantly i have lost friendshipssss.
indeed credibility takes a lifetime to build but a moment to destroy.
To A: I was filled with hope a couple of times, but the effect would be double once ur hopes are trampled on the ground and once again disappointment starts to sink in. we were once pretty close but i guess this closeness cannot be continued once i start feeling worthless in front of you. It seems like i am a pain to you. I started hating myself when i cant let you go, that i still cares for you. nevertheless, i know we cant go back to the past anymore. You once made mi feel like a princess, but then again, and now you have made mi feel like some dirt. you know that i am hurt , you know that i will be hurt, but u nv fails to take a dagger to stab it right into my heart.
To B: I seriously dunno what you are up to. you have disappoint mi the most! you kept telling mi u were innocent and that i cant see things on the surface. You are always a sensitive person, but then again, this time you have let mi down. you once mentioned "he is a bastard, but u are not a bitch". i also do not wish to conclude u are a bitch. probably you jus wanna enjoy the attention given. anyway, once bitten twice shy, i doubt i can find back the trust which i have in you. Facing you makes mi inferior of myself.......
"goodbye to my 2 "once close" friends" , all the best to you!
.mmei huii bloggedd @ 5:09 PM.
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