+Tuesday, October 20, 2009+
Dear x,
i thanked u for being frank enough. i seriously got mixed feeling towards you. You have given mi something which i have nv experienced it before, becos of your i have changed partially. I have learnt to think deeper, i have gained many many knowledge from you, and i ever thanked God for letting mi know you. I have learnt to be more couregous, learnt to be more expressive and truthful to myself
On the other hand, i hate you. i hated you for letting mi fell into it, for letting mi feel inferior to myself, giving mi uncertainty, making mi realised that i was quite foolish at the end of the day. to be frank, the experience you have given mi isnt wonderful, i felt pretty hurt at times for somethings u do, somethings u said, you made mi feel as if i am not worth the effort....Well, it's time to move on, it's time to stop deceiving myself. You mentioned that you would try to be nicer, hm... some words some actions come from the heart, no point trying. Does trying helps, wouldnt u get tired at the end of the day? i know if i give up, life would sucks for a period of time but it is too late to back out now ?
* God pls guide mi.... i believe u have every reason for everything, you let mi meet x, have i gained enough from him, is it time to leave and move on?
.mmei huii bloggedd @ 12:19 PM.
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