+Friday, September 26, 2008+
my new job...... sob sob..... i dun feel like working anymore, i am beginning to feel that this is probably not the environment i am looking for,despite the bigger and posh looking building, the air is cold, everyone is in their own world working hard.. Furthermore, i am beginning to feel that i am rather incompetent.. to be frank, i miss jan being in the same office as mi. I am happy being an intern over there, but i am not very happy being a perm staff there. As an intern, with the charge out rate of $10 per hour, i can do many things, i can help ppl out. I dun really care about the hierachy in the company, jus be friends and i feel that most of them are helpful and friendly and they really treat mi like a small kid. when i am bored, i would walked ard the office and sit beside my seniors attempting to start a small talk with them...
However, when i became a perm staff, things started to change, when i have nothing to do and wanted to help others, i need to think about whether am i able to account it to my AO, i need to think about what the other freshies would think about mi.
But one thing that pleased mi is that some of the seniors whom i have known when i was an intern and have recently been promoted to manager, they are still quite friendly.at least they still smile to mi (unlike some small fry in the company still soooo hao lian lar !)
I seriously think that going in as the normal batch together with all the local unis is indeed a "courage". the company hired too many ppl from the local unis that they have actually created their own clique. It is quite difficult to blend into their group. but luckily i have the malaysian clique with mi...
Lastly, i saw my schedule today and it seems quite bad. It is a first year client, hence there is no working papers for us to follow. GOD !!! SAVE MI!!!!
the road ahead wouldnt be easy... i need to be blessed!!!!
.mmei huii bloggedd @ 10:48 PM.
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